I realize that I use how people, more specifically my ‘friends’ treat me to determine just how much i am worth, not so much to them but for my own self-worth.
I also realize I’ve fallen into this pattern of befriending people who don’t believe I’m worth much which is evident in the way they treat me. And as a result i begin questioning my worth some more.
No one is obligated to do anything for anyone but as a friend, i normally assume there is a certain level of courtesy that is extended.
What to do to break out of this cycle?
Since today’s my birthday I will try my best to feel good about myself and that I am good enough. Even though I don’t now. I just want to hide now, hide from the disappointment I feel this day has in store.
I will try to believe people genuinely care about me today and all that jazz.
I hope my life isn’t in vain
"You should be a person worthy of your own love. If you’re not - you’re doing it wrong."